Tuesday, 30 November 2010

30/11/2010

I never admitted I was addicted to smoking, until the first time I gave up for one day in over a year. Never over estimate the power of denial.
It wasn't too bad until I reached 10 pm when I experienced a hurricane of emotions. This got to the point where I realised how insane this really was. I was sprawled between my bed sheets having a selfish fit by myself. and this was DAY 1
TODAY
 I am working with analogies, every cigarette in my head is a person I love.
Second tactic, wrinkles..
The below image is also a minor push to stop. Oh beautiful Kate always managed to fool me. I dont really want to look like a shrivelled prune if i can help it. Even if i can get airbrushed.
7 days,
So I have reached the week mark. 
And this is the point of Fleming I discovered, this experience is formidably disgusting and something I never wish to endure again. One positive outlook. 
On Friday night it was the hardest. I was invited to a dinner party at a friends house. Every one was smoking. it looks like a have replaced smoking with blogging.